Back to life. Part II.

This is day 60 of que Lockdown/Quarantine. The situation is like a science fiction movie. But everybody normalized it.

We adapt to everything. 70 days ago everybody would have laughed if told that most europe will be in lockdown the next week, all travel and flights cancelled, no one allowed to go to the streets, no restaurants, no shops… Now it is normal.

We are living in an apocalyptic science fiction movie. Helicopters, people with masks, controls everywhere. No one can leave or enter Canary Islands. Planes and boats stopped. It is a science fiction movie. A very bad one.

So during the first part I isolated myself. Almost no social networks. Not a big need to talk with everyone. A lot of things were cancelled, and that meant time. And i always lack time. So this was like a gift of extra time. I focused and i did a LOT of stuff. Things i wanted to finish since years, things i needed to do. I spent time with myself. I was thinking a lot about the past, the future, myself, the people, my motivations. It is good to have time to stop and think, even if for a lot of people is scary or hard.

And my process finished. How do i know? I am starting to have a bit of free time. That feeling of being relaxed because the world stopped and i have time to catch up is dissapearing. I want to think about this process like a detox. From the world, the people, the society and that normality that i always hated.

And I am posting because i need a ritual to finish that stage and start with a new one.

And I am posting because i want to remember this process.

I learned a couple of new things. I did a couple of other things. So here is a random list of the activities that took part in my process.

• I fighted with my house. I didnt want to be here. I was unable to leave. So i changed it. It is an extremely complicated process that is related to my childhood. I would have NEVER in my life faced this if i weren’t in lockdown here.
• We fixed the house. It was almost abandoned. Everything destroyed after the calima storm. Garden abandoned for one year. Things falling apart.
• I learned how to use an axe. It is not as easy as you might think. The angle is everything. I started removing fallen trees.
• Then i learned how to use a machete, a saw and a mowing machine.
• I learned about plants. Good plants and bad plants. How to move a cactus to a bigger pot. How much to water a fig tree. That stuff.
• Then when it was impossible to remove the huge broken branches from the huge trees, i learned how to take them away using ropes and a van.
• We worked for days and days in the pool. I learned a lot of things about pools, chemicals, i looked for the user manuals of the filters and valves and did diagrams until i understood everything. We emptied, cleaned it, cleaned it again, fixed every part and repaired everything.

Now the house looks amazing and we can have barbecues at the swimming pool.

• I read everything about photovoltaic panels and batteries and 12volt circuits and circuit breakers and kinds of cables and fuses and i ordered and set up a 200w pv panel for my campervan.
• Then a 170Ah battery.
• Then we redesigned the inner part of the camper and added lights, controllers, switchs, storage boxes, i dissasembled half of the van and i assembled it again.
• I learned how to cut and drill aluminium and wood. Amazon and mail was not working here so i had to build my pieces.
• Also how to use 3d software to design parts.

Now the van is more similar than a Mad Max vehicle than a normal one.

• I catalogued every belonging i have. And throwed away half of my posessions. Everything is labeled, in boxes and indexed in a huge google sheet.
• I optimized EVERYTHING. Every piece of the photovideo bags, every bolt in every toolbox. Every shirt and tshirt. I can just go and check where it is and how many i have.
• I almost finished all the photo sessions that were in my “to-do” folder. Around 200 folders.
• I finished a lot of work projects. The amazing Liz Rainbow movie. I got new contracts for producing content. In fact we have now more work than before.
• we opened a manyvids, a onlyfans and we still do a lot of custom videos.
• Because it is impossible to produce and everybody wants to edit the content the have. And because I am a very good editor, I have a lot of work now 🙂
• I used the absurd situation of the sterling pound during the start of the pandemic and the fact that a very famous cinema shop was doing very uncommon money conversion to take advantage of the situation and get another Blackmagic camera, lenses and complete my production equipment.
• I rented my place in Madrid to a business from Netherlands. They are very happy and they pay very well.

One year ago we were robbed. All our production stuff was stolen from the car by someone who knew where it was. I lost all my stuff, cameras, digital recorders, computer, lenses, everything. And all our money. We had nothing. Now we have an amazing cinema equipment that we would never had otherwise. It was a horrible situation but also an opportunity to start again.

• I became closer to the people i was close to, and i let go the people that were not so close. And that improved my life a lot. I think we dont haven infinite resources. And if we try to keep close everybody, then there is a very small amount of energy and attention we can give to each one. Now i have deepeer conversations. I know my friends better and that is beautiful. And some friends from long ago appeared again. As they always do in the complicated moments :).
• We started to take online courses with some shibari teachers. The workshops organized by Kokoro Studio are awesome. We took lessons from Riccardo and Ale, Wykd Dave and Clover (and their octopuses) and from Alex and Natasha.
• We started to collaborate in some shibari projects from outside Spain.
• We organized an event (for the third year) and it will happen. Because we planned it in a smart way.
• I decided to NOT edit, finish or do any unpaid work, photosession or video i still have to do, unless i really want to do it. Sorry for all the videos i promised to edit. Life is short. If you still want them, talk with me 🙂
• We survived floodings, losing electricity, another storm, falling trees, a fight, the ghosts of the distant past and a serious mosquito situation.
• We learned a lot from every single one (situation, not mosquitos).
• I started to cook. I was always able to cook. But i cooked for being alive, not for enjoying it. I still miss sushi.
• I read a lot of articles. First about the virus. Then about a lot of things. Then i stopped reading articles. I was scared. Not because of the virus, but because of the people. I watched how Trump was losing contact with reality day after day. I watched conspiracy theories grow and a lot of people liking them. I had conversations in the last days where people told me the virus doesnt exist, it is the masons, it is the communists, it is the deep state, it is bill bates, it is the fascists, it is 5G and even much more crazy theories. A lot of people are rejecting vaccination now.

And a couple of days ago i realized that i generated a huge amount of material in the last weeks. I will start posting pictures: some new, some old, some videos, and a lot of stuff.

Now i feel like one million times better than the 13th of March. Probably the most useful two months in my life. But now i want to travel. I want to see my friends. I want to sleep at remote places. We took everything for granted, in our privileged life. And for a couple of months we lost 0.1% of the privileges. And everybody went crazy.

At least this will be useful to value and enjoy what we had, if we recover it one day.

One thing i know for sure. The day it is allowed to travel again, i will take my MadMax Camper and i will leave the island. With no destination and no date. I want to explore, to enjoy, to see my friend and to be free. And then one day i will be back to the island because it is an amazing and safe place to live. If the Cosmos allows it.